started to remember

The lights turned on slowly, and I started to remember. It was fuzzy at first but slowly the definition came to clarity and that is when I heard the cries of the children in the next room and I thought oh no and then I thought am I the only one left??? and then I called out with a prayer but I could not hear anything over the cries of the children in the next room so I rolled over and tried to get up but something heavy weighed down on my back and I started to remember so I stopped. I stopped trying to stand up I decided to stay on the ground and I could hear the cries of the children in the next room and I called out another prayer and I smelled the smoke all around me as it seeped into my lungs and I think I’m crying now am I crying now where am I and what were those lights and why can’t I remember?